100 Days Without My Wonderful Mum

This was not how it was supposed to be

we were supposed to have more time

much much much more time with you

Ma, with shocking poignancy on Tuesday 04 October 2022, exactly 100 days ago today, we experienced the finiteness of life at its most brutal and cruel, and more specifically the finiteness of the unique life of you, our beautiful darling Ma, as it was a day of reckoning, and the most devastating and heartbreaking hours of our life, when silence carried words

Ma, it has been 100 days since we were with you last, we have realised is that we lose you in a horrendous moment but your painful loss is felt over a period of time, we have learned that our sadness and grief is an ocean, and sometimes we drown, while other days we are forced to swim, as most excruciating pain that we cannot explain but can only experience

Ma, 100 days on, we understand how the loss of one important life can unravel the lives of so many, and we now know the woeful passing of a giant of a person, like you were to us, can undo the rest of our individual lives, just look at the lives you undid, as your family has been hurting so badly - it is so damn hard and so bloody unbearable since you are gone