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The Brilliance and Stillness of My Mum’s Photos
The photos pulsed with my Mum’s presence
a trick of the heart that let me pretend
just for a breath, that she was still here

Every single day, I look at my darling mum’s photos
for months, these images were my refuge, my lifeline
each frame captured the brilliance that was her life
I did not just see her, I felt her, and her vibrance
her cheerful smile was not frozen, it bloomed
her beautiful eyes were not still, but sparkled
these pictures kept me afloat in the storm of grief
When I traced the curve of her cheek in the photos
I swore I could hear her voice, warm and teasing
as though she had just walked out of the room
might return any second, and for a moment
I almost convinced myself that she is still here
yet, the longer I stare, the more the illusion cracks
with every glance, there is also an aching pain
As time passed, the stillness in the frames screams
her radiance is trapped in a moment that will
never change, her smile, once full of life, unmoving
these photos, once my greatest solace, began to
contrast painfully with the devastating truth
the pictures are stunning, yet unbearably cruel
offering both love and loss in the same breath
Her photos, no matter how vivid, no matter
how damn hard I beg, time would not rewind
her future, our future, is a story cut short abruptly
the pictures are just silent echoes of a life that
refuses to keep playing, still, I hold onto those images
though it hurts so damn much, maybe, in some way
that is enough to help me survive the impossible pain

I am a motherless daughter and an adult orphan, who loves passionately and grieves intensely, as I write and share about my personal grief journey with others, after I lost my darling Mum on 04 October 2022
to major stroke so suddely and so unexpectedly, with the hope that it might comfort, help and inspire people on their own journey.
"Mum, I carry your strength
with every step I take
on this new path "
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