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From Four to Two: A Loss Too Great to Bear
We were never meant to be just two, we were supposed to remain four
holding on to each other the way you had always held us

We were four, a perfect, messy, loving quartet
a family bound by love, by joy, by togetherness
a family that filled rooms, not with noise, but life
a tight knit unit that felt whole, that felt safe
and a complete circle, a world within itself
then, one day, we reduced to three, when
my beloved dad passed away all those years ago
Three were broken, but through the pain
we were still a family, we still had each other
we still had Mum, who became our strength
who filled the spaces left behind by Dad
who held us together, we mourned, and
we learned to carry our grief and sorrow
we learned to live, to enjoy, and to laugh again
But then, without warning, the universe
suddenly tore another page from our story
and just like that, Mum was taken from us
we were never supposed to become only two
my big brother and I, my dear husband and I
two, a cruel math problem, an incomplete
equation, a table set for guests who never arrive
My brother and I, are two now, but we carry
four souls in our blood, my husband and I
stared at each other, wondering how we got here
and though we find ways to survive, the truth
remains, our family will never be whole again
we were four, we became three, then just two
and yet, love does not subtract, it multiplies

I am a motherless daughter and an adult orphan, who loves passionately and grieves intensely, as I write and share about my personal grief journey with others, after I lost my darling Mum on 04 October 2022
to major stroke so suddely and so unexpectedly, with the hope that it might comfort, help and inspire people on their own journey.
"Mum, I carry your strength
with every step I take
on this new path "
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