I ache, I ache for your sudden loss

I ache for your unexpected absence

I ache for the moments that were stolen from us

I ache for the life we will never share again

this ache is my constant companion

a reminder of the love that was so strong

and the absence that is so devastating

Everywhere I look, you are both here and not here

your essence imprinted on my world

but your physical presence achingly absent

I ache for the sound of your voice, your laughter

for the way you would call my nickname that

made me feel like everything would always be fine

each day without you is a journey through pain

I ache for missing you, for the mundane yet

irreplaceable routines that made up our days

I ache for the advice I can no longer seek

for the stories I can no longer tell you

for the milestones you will no longer witness

for the comfortable silences that only

a mother and daughter can share together

I do not know if the ache will ever go away

but I would rather ache for you than have

never had the joy of being your baby daughter

I would not trade your pure love for anything

so I will ache, and I always will, with every tear

every memory, and every moment of love

I carry forward, and in that love, you live on